i am still am still alive and loving wide eyed in my time

i'm totally stoned and crying and in my basement and this all feels very dismal. i guess i really don't have any more reason to stay here.

it's snowing.

november 17

"being an 18 year old schoolgirl is soooo hard... mmm hard.... this math homework is making me soo hott...but all i have is a cucumber? whatever could i do with it?"

anonymous letters.

i wish you would come home.
i know our last meeting was awkward but we aren't single anymore. It would be so nice to talk.
Can you come down? How sick are you?
what is your immune system like?
Can you go outside much?
Can i meet her?
I'll let you meet him!
He's wonderful
You can play jazz with him perhaps?
i wish i said i love you.
but i like how things have turned out.
i told mum about it, i cried.
70% survival rate somebody told me?

much love
miss you

peculiar.

i went to a show with my brother a few days ago, which was quite interesting. he apparently knows everyone in the world. or at least, more people than I do.

after the kids rushed the stage, one of them professed her undying love for my brother.

why does this sort of thing never happen to me?

but then, I absurdly ran into an old friend? who i hadn't seen in about six years. he's some kind of stoner now, with long hair, and flannel.

i remembered being locked in a closet with him once, and i had to quiz him on the spelling of male reproductive organs.

anyway, he invited me to some kind of party, or something like that, so we shall see how that works out.

in the meantime, my brother fought off his rabid fangirls.

Girl: "Oliver? Oh my god, it's Oliver! I had the biggest crush on you!"

Oliver: "Uh...who are you?"

i never put these up.

i just watched she's too young on a whim, and that movie is kind of hilarious because it's so terrible. the sad part about it though, was that i could relate to it.

ccg has relocated!

it
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http://cococasimirgenvieve.blogspot.com/

FLCL